The thing I love the most scares me the most what do I do?

I'm in love with paranormal/mythical states and creatures. I love watching videos about aliens then down the list the the loch ness monster to angels to unicorns I love it all. I love watching shows about vampires (not like true blood but like actual vampire religion) and also shows about zombies. I just love it (expecially the lake mosters, angels and zombies...but mostly the zombies) I even watch videos of the spirt leaving the body but my favorite thing besides the zombies have to be the ghost but they scare me so much but I just can't get enough of it. I'm even decideing to give up my child hood dream to become a vet (my passion since I was 2) to pursue a career in cryptozoology when I go to college. But even though I love it I'm so scared of it like when I go to bed at night I think that a fallen angel will be in my room or a ghost looking over me or I'm scared to drive by grave yards at night but I love it and I don't want to be scared of it what do I do?